A letter from Jan 19, 2025

Dear FutureMe, hi heaven, i watched unbreakable today. It's a filipino film, it's a must watch and with that I shed a tear. sakit niya sis, i fear I'm gonna be mariel—or I am her. Ma pride haha, not in a way nga indi mag sorry but, mataas ang tingin sa sarili, nga tingin lagi siya yung tama, nga ginabuligan ang friends for her own satisfaction para ma feel niya nga i helped them,,,, may scene nga muna and natamaan ako ng malala, confrontation scene after magwala ni mariel. Pero kasi life's unfair, I can feel mariel she was there when dina needed her, but not when she needed dina :( i mean yeah dina was there, but she was busy impressing her mama helen more but mariel kinda isolated herself din naman eh, i fear I'm her. I want someone to help me but I don't want them to know that I'm suffering, I don't want to be a burden and to bother them. also sakit no? when you're doing everything to impress someone, tas wala lang sa kanya? just hurts kasi people will still choose someone nga mas bubbly ang personality or someone nga magaling sa tao over you na ginagawa ang lahat for that person. Again I can feel you mariel, it's like you're existing but you're just there, when they need you, of course you're there pero pag ikaw, ano wala? i hate this but is something wrong with me? When ba magiging enough, na makita din nila na i can be more than that, more what they know. Haysssss this is not about the movie hahsgdgahahha bye