A letter from Oct 18, 2024

Dear Kenny, Today is October 18, 2024, 12:05pm and I'm planning to send this letter to you 2 years from now. How's the future you kenny? I never tried this website before, and I'm not really sure about your Gmail account, so I'm not sure if this letter will find you, but I hope so. I think you already know who I am (the girl who loves to make and keep a love letter to her loved ones), but I am also skeptical if you would still recognize me. This will be my first time reaching out to you anonymously, because, as you know, I hate secrets and I love honesty (idk if you can still remember). I guess when you found this letter you'd already graduated from college, maybe in love and already settling for good or reaching your dreams in a different dimension of the world. But wherever you are, I hope you're happy, and if you're not, I hope you will be. So, the purpose of this letter is for me to express the things that I can't tell you. Let me start from the day you first messaged me... 03/21/2022 3:42 AM, 2 years ago in the middle of the night, two lost souls casually talking as if they knew each other for a long time. Two souls who want to run away in this life, kids who're scared about their past, and a human being who needs a shoulder to lean on. We found each other in the midst of chaos. (I got that exact date and time from Discord.) You have a strong personality; you didn't let anyone enter your life immediately. But I was astounded that, in such a short period of time, you let me witness the gentle side of you. You love to share your baby pictures with your dad; you love to send me pictures with your baby cousin and your cute cats; you love to post me on your social media accounts; you become vulnerable whenever you're talking with me; we even talk about our past; and what I love about you is that you attentively listen to my everyday rants and give your sentiments that try to let me know that you're really listening to me. You also love to talk about how your day went; you love to send me silly videos of you and your friends; you love to send messages whenever I'm not around. And I will be honest with you, what I felt about you was not love, or it was, but I am just skeptical about it and keep on denying it, but I'm sure I am happy to have met a beautiful soul like you. We weren't perfect; you hurt me, and I guess I hurt you too. I keep on messaging you even though you already blocked me because I'm worried that you might think you're alone in this world because your papa (your kakampi) is not around. I can also still remember when you opened up about your family situation and all of your experiences as a kid. After that conversation, I tend to understand you more. And starting that day, I have this thing in myself that I think I have an obligation to protect you from everything that may cause you harm. I want to protect you from everything; I want to be your best friend; I want to be there for you when you feel like you're alone in this world, and I hope I was there when you were forced to be independent because you felt you had no one. I hope I can able to hug the little kenny. Also, one of the reasons is that you're the only person I trusted online. Before, I never imagined trusting someone online because I think everyone is just playing around. But with you, I did. So thank you for giving me the opportunity to be vulnerable and for making me feel wanted. But despite it all, I'm very grateful to have met you. How amazing it is to have met a beautiful soul in this cruel world. During those days, you really made me happy, and our midnight conversation will always have a place in my heart, forever. Our life realizations, our dumb conversations, the inside jokes, the music, and the playlist that we used to recommend to each other. Talking to you feels like we are on a different dimension of the world, and I can't even think that I need to sleep. Someday, I would love to share our stories with my future kids, assuring them that meeting people online is not that scary because there is someone like you.  Still can't believe na sporty naka karon and dili na babad sa PC HAHAHAHHA I'm very happy for your progress kenn. If this letter will find you in the future, please don't message me to ask if this was from me because I know that in the future, I'll regret sending you this secret message that I have in my diary. Just continue to live your life. Congratulations also (graduate na siguro ka today). I'm proud of you always. This message is a reminder that once in your life, you've been valued by a vulnerable woman who loves to write a love letter to her loved ones, a woman who's very garaon, and a woman who you used to listen to while yapping about her life: me. As I've said before, please do well in life, Kenny! bye bye:)