A letter from Apr 10, 2023

Dear FutureMe, hi salma. i hope all is well with life. im in the end of 6th grade. im getting goose bumps writing this lol. but this should reach me in my first year of high school. are you okay? i think right now, im alot better then before. my mental health is better. i love sephora and buying skincare. my friends are laiba chagani, rita bahraoui and some others. im not very close with parizey gul and lina idk how to spell her last name. am i still going to ibn seena?? i dont think i am, and i really hope i am not going to a islamic private school. whats your dream career ? right now, i want to be a buisness woman, lawyer, english teacher abroad or something like that. not all of those jobs, but i cant pick. i like this guy named usmon but i dont want to. im starting to take care of myself and not care about him because i know he wont matter in a few years. your soon to drive right? i hope InshAllah driving will be a pleasant experience for me. get me a toyota or honda loll. maybe nissan but for a first car i dont really care lol. i wanna work at starbucks, sephora, publix or target while im a teen. do i have a job? who are my friends? do i still love kdramas and kpop?? i started watching kdramas and kpop in 6th grade and its been so nice. my current favorie kpop group is newjeans. i loved the drama crash course in romance. kdramas and kpop is like my escape. they distract me from life and problems. please go to south korea one day InshAllah. i really want to visit and be an english teacher abroad there. im insecure with my body. i have been trying to not eat, im around 110 pounds and i feel fat. i know you might feel bad, but i just want to be skinny and pretty. i want to loose leg fat, arm fat, and stomach fat. im starting to eat less and i feel proud of myself when i only eat 1 meal a day. if i had to tell you something, please focus and take care of yourself. dont listen or get manipulated by any guys or friends that come our way. remember that your good the way you are. and most importantly, explore islam and understand it. i have been struggling with my faith and im confused. i hope that i have figured out my purpose in life. i know we are still young and just started high school, but dont forget our back round and our young middle school self. i love the weeknd, taylor swift. please stay in contact with our old friends. i hope we are happy. <3