A letter from Dec 27, 2022

Dear Future Matty, This is 16-year-old you. On this day, you are 18 years old. I am not sure if it is a weekday or a weekend, TBH I am too lazy to even look...LOL. Right now, we have a lot going for us. We were a starter as a middle for JV volleyball this year, then we got to dress for varsity. Man, when I type that out, that is amazing to look at!!!!! We even made the Cincy Classics Club volleyball team we tried out for this year. Which is 2022 - 2023 btw. Our Hoco was very different for us this year than it was our first year which was last year. (For me at least). We looked stunning and felt stunning, mom did our dream hairstyle and she ****** it! Molly, Harold's girlfriend, did our makeup and she ****** it! I wonder if they are still together, I hope so! she is very nice and fits right in with our family, I like her. I like her a lot! Anyways, our dress was stunning! it was hot pink and hat an open back that laced up and it had tank top "sleeves". I have made a lot of new friends this year. Kaiden Robinson has become one of our best friends! Same with Morgan Vinson, she is a grade below us. Cadance has definitely had a lot to do with my life and has helped out a lot, she is def one of my best friends. Same with Maggie, I never thought of all people, her and I would be such great friends. I guess that is how life is, the most unlikely people are always the most present. We have a boy that we like at the moment. His name is Braden Buckner. We call him BBQ or BBQ sauce! LOL! He plays soccer and is the kicker for the football team. We made a list of standards for us so we wouldn't date a complete butthole or anyone of that sort. He violates like two rules. He is blonde, and he is in the same grade as us. But he is different from those other boys in our grade. BBQ is nice, kind, respectful, he knows how to make us laugh when we are sad, his smile lights up the room, and he is just perfect in every way for us. I wonder if at this point, we have dated or are dating. I hope so, honestly, I do. I have never liked a boy this much before tbh. This time it's different. I still remember the night I realized we liked him. It was the football game against Eaton our sophomore year (which is this year). It was the Halloween game. The game went into overtime, and I had to leave before the game ended and all the football players came off the field. I was devastated that he wouldn't see how cute and hot I looked. Now it has gone to him and I liking each other but we are both to chicken to tell one another. We even hung out at the basketball games, after I convinced him to go! But things are looking up, I have a good feeling about him. Exams for the first semester this year, were rough! they were so difficult. I am actually decently popular this year, and my friend group doesn't hate each other. That's the perfect mix of popular to amazing ratio! we have had a major glow up this year. We are allowed to wear makeup and have been taking care of our hair and have been paying attention to how we look. I won't leave the house endless I know I will get BBQ's attention. (Endless I oversleep...LOL). We have finally figured out what we wanna do with our life. We have decided to go into the medical field! Being an EMT is my top choice, but an emergency medicine doctor would be cool too! I don't want to be a nurse, that's all mom wants me to be. She keeps saying "you might as well be a nurse, they get paid more" but I don't think she understands that I don't want to chase money. I want happiness. I finally found something I enjoy, so I don't care how much it pays. As long as I am happy. I wonder if that still applies to when I am reading this again. Wow the big one eight. That's crazy! I hope life is good for you now. I hope that I am still best friends with Bella, Molly, and Alayna. If I am not, reconnect, reconcile. I don't care what happened between us, make amends and get our best friends back. We can't function without them; I promise you that. I hope dad isn't as bad as he is now, he and I aren't having the best relationship since I had my first anxiety attack on January 1st of 2022. He refuses to accept that I am human, a girl, and most importantly NOT HIM! I am different and wear my heart on my sleeve, I can't keep my feelings in. He doesn't understand that. I hope he does now. Honestly, I hope he lets us go to our college of choice. Top three choices are 1. Notre Dame, 2. Ohio State, and 3. University of Dayton (UD). Let's just hope I get scholarships! Anyways, that's all I have to say at the moment. I am sure there are more letters headed your way! Have a good life Future Matty, live it that way you intend, finish that Bucketlist! I love you. Love, Sophomore Matty