A letter from Nov 28, 2022

Dear first love, I don't know how to let you go or how to forget about you. its been 7 months..wait...wow now that I think about it its not that long.. anyways I am sitting and thinking about whether I should text you or not, I know my motto is to do everything I want but this is something I am not able to do because its YOU!!! I just don't wanna lose you or do something stupid which will make me lose you. You are my best friend yaar I already hate it that I fell for you whyy whyyy I didn't wanted that then whyy! The reason I am writing this is because I don't know whether in future we are gonna be together or I am gonna get over you but right now it's just ******* me. Anyways I hope you are still in my life because I need you. I don't know what I am feeling is right or wrong but I just wanna tell you that I think I AM IN LOVE WITH YOU! there I said it! I can't say this to your face so I'm just gonna hide here. I don't know about future but right now I LOVE YOU.