A letter from Nov 11, 2022

Dear FutureMe, im sitting in class rn and its exactly 8: 22, class ends in 8 minutes and im sitting here writing this bc im embarrassed asf rn. I was so confident in this assignment and then the teacher gives me and E-. Like i know my swedish isnt good but i cant help it. Atleast i passed. Anyway, 8th grade has been going really ******, i cant wait for a break. Like im sooo depressed rn and everything just keeps getting worse, i aint ******* myself just yet tho. Ill stay a little longer. Reminds me of when i was like 7 an suicidal asf and i still made it here so i can make it to 18 and move out, 18 is in 4 years tho so idk.. but ill make it. I need to focus on studies more instead of sleeping all day. Cuz grades determine my future but idgaf tbh. I dont understand anything. I wanna move countries cuz im just so tired of sweden, Raised and born here. and i hate it here, everyone is so racist and annoying and it gets on my nerves, im not that strong either bro i needa hit the gym, im skinny ASFFFF i needa get rid of this ed ive tried so hard. Someone fly me to korea to get clothes that acctually fit me cuz i fit the beauty standard there. Anyway, i stopped caring abt other peoples negative thoughts and opinions abt me, im so happy i trained myself and after years i finally got here, im a very lucky girl and ill forever stand by that. even tho i have a very ****** life. My grandma has cancer and idk if she will make it, idc if she dies tho cuz shes very abusive and she abused my mom, thats why my mom is like the way she is, i cant blame her when she abts abusive towards me because thats how she was raised and it makes me feel really sad for her, and same for my dad, his mom passed when he was 19 and hes never been the same. It hurts seeing my mom run to her mom to help her from spending 19k for her and flying across the world and staying here for a month to help her and she isnt one bit grateful. But guess what, i dont give a single ****. anyway i just got out of class and idk what to write here now, because i remember i used to write the most depressing **** for me to read when i was 12 and now im 14 and i dont care abt how i feel anymore so i guess thats a change? idk, anyways ill update when im alive or allah knows when but ill see. girl idk what im supposed to write now, anyways bye have fun and stop skipping class u fat retard, see u in 4 years BYEEEE 😋