A letter from Aug 05, 2022

Dear Future Me, This email was written on Friday, the 5th of August, 2022. It's currently 10:22 pm and you are meant to be working furiously on you TOK essay, due in like, one and a half hours. I hope you're still alive. Or- that I'm still alive, I suppose. That's just how I'm feeling at the moment. Not really seeing the positives in life. I hope I'm better. What happened with Kloie? Kloie Wong? She is/was this super cute and sweet girl that I met through a mutual friend, Luka Plunkett. I told her I wanted to make her my wife. I wonder if I still do... If it didn't work out, why? And what did you do next? Could you do me a favour? Like, please make an effort to do what I'm about to ask: If you're doing drugs, stop. If you can't, go get help. If you can't, tell a friend you want to stop and ask them to help you. I don't want me to **** up my life. If you're still ******* around and being lazy or if you're a fat slob (and don't try to look at yourself in the mirror and say you're not, even if you have to suck in your stomach and posture up, because as it is that's the direction my life is going), please also stop. I know it's a bit dumb sounding for past me to ask future me to deal with past me's problems, but present me is going to try my hardest to make it easy for you, or maybe you'll be in the best shape of our life, and won't have to do anything. If you don't have anyone really special in your life, get the **** out there man. I know being lonely is hard. But with Kloie I know that everything is alright whenever I see her name on my screen. I want me to be happy. And I'm not happy now. So I'm going to try to fix that. But if it doesn't work out the way present me wants it to, I'm asking and reminding future me (you) to try again. For you. For me. I hope I patched up my relationship with dad. I know he loves me. And I love him too. And if you are a good son, you'll love him too by the time you get this. Because he's never done anything but think about, care for, work for, and love you. Ever. It's so depressing that he lives so far away now, but maybe things are different. If they are not.. **** it, if you have beef with dad, shove it aside and message him. Ask to video call him one day, or meet in person for lunch. Reconnect with your family dude. They love me so much, and I see that now, but I'm worried that future me won't recognise it. I want you to know I love you, me. It was weird typing that but I mean it. I want me to go far in life. I want you to receive this and realise how far you have come, or how far you have fell. Either way I want you to keep changing. For the better. This is Matteo Dominic Scapecchi Griffiths signing off. You will never hear from me again. Goodbye.