A letter from May 23rd, 2022

Dear me in 4 years, Hi. How has life been? I have so many questions. First off, hows our recovery? Did we relapse? Are we even still alive? I hope we are. This past year has been the hardest of my life. Missing half of 7th grade for treatment, relapsing twice, etc. But I know that I’m stronger now. I just hope it stays that way. Everything is still so triggering, even the dumbest things, like snow and Denver. I’m trying to overcome this all, and I’ve been doing ok recently. Ever since the whole thing with that one person, my outlook has changed, and I realize how bad this illness is. Are we still dating her? I love her I think. When did I tell her that? I hope it was a good story to tell. How was the short film? Did we get funded? Speaking of funding, I hope Mrs. S is still a part of our life. She’s so amazing and has helped me through so much. How are our friends from school? Are we still friends with everyone? How are M and C? Did M end up back in treatment? I really hope they didn’t. This is making me so emotional. Schools ending soon, so thats fun. I am really bad at math, did I ever get better? I really hope everything’s good. Where are we going to college? Is it for environmental sciences? Or did we find something new? That’s all i can think of for now, but I want you to know that if you’re struggling, we got through it at least once, we can get through it again. I love you (yes I love myself I’m not conceited for that).