A letter from Dec 9th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Hi! Right now it's December 9th, 2021. I am 13 years old and I am in 7th grade. My best grade is in social studies. OH CRAP! I just checked and I got a 103 on my project. I'm so cool and awesome. Anyways, right now I have a crush on Grace and Evangelina. I had a crush on Gavin a few weeks ago and I am disappointed in myself. He is so ugly! AND A TRUMPIE. Anyways, Lexi and Anhar are being very mean recently. They talk about personal things in front of other people. It's very frusterating. Things with mom have been really hard recentelly. I can tell she is smoking although she tries to hide it. Also, she took a photo of my face today. She said it was for Christmas book. She's obviously lying. I can tell. My top artist on spotify is Clairo, then its Mitski. I love reading alot. Right now Im reading the Throne of Glass series. I got my dad into reading it. I am still dealing with Josh stuff. Everytime someone mentions it to him things get awkward. People make jokes about it. That sucks. Im really insecure about my face right now. I have huge dark circles under my eyes and theyre very noticable. I also have skin problems. I started sh. I mean I started in March then stopped but I did it again a little bit ago. Ive only told one person. Lily. Mainly because she saw. Im trying to stop. I few nights I had this weird thing happen to me. im not sure if it was a dream or if it was real or a little bit of both. But this shiny blue lady came up to me and placed a light around my wrist where i sh and said whenever I do it it hurts her. So, Ive stopped recentally. Then she laid with me until I fell asleep into another dream. I wish she could come back. Maybe shes my gaurdian angle. Or maybe Im overthinking. Now you should be 16. I always dreamed of being 16. Fun parties, boys, girls, driving, kisses, football games. Its probably not even likes that though. I feel like your worse than I am now or a lot better. Are you doing ok? I hope you are if not I give you a hug... from your younger self. Have you had your first kiss yet? Im so lonely. Im also 13. How is overnight. This year was your last year being a camper. I love overnight. Thats the only place where i can meet people that are like me. I miss them. I miss crying in their arms( that was my favorite part). Do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend. Do you still go to that stinky crusty school. I hate the people there theyre all so annoying. Except for a few people. Im going to miss Connor. Hes leaving this year. You should say hi again, see how hes doing. Hes my only real guy friend right now. Thats all for now because Im tired. Hopefully this letter doesnt get lost or forgotten. Thats all for now, Your younger self Alex:)