A letter from August 5th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, I write this letter for let you know that you did a great job as of the moment. This year taught you a lot of lesson that I know you never expected. Those lesson makes you stronger and braver for who you will become in the future. Year 2020 is like a roller coaster ride, there is so many times that you fought a battle alone that makes you cry because of the lose or makes you happy because of the success you have done. I am proud of you, not only for surpass those challenges but also for trusting yourself and for believing to the things you can do. This year, it is your first time to be in a night swimming with your friends. I remember when your excuse for you to allow to go is when you tell to your Parents that you will go to a Birthday Party and not in a swimming. But those moments are so ******* amazing, the happiness that you have that moments are so priceless. To be with your friends who have the same vibes as yours are difficult to forget. But as the time passing by, people change. You are getting used to their characteristics, that you never expected that one day it will all change. And that ends on February, same month last 2019 when Team Tomador formed as a team, but as you say you also did your job, you ask for forgiveness, you also want to be with them again but the scenario and destiny does not want. I am thankful to Team Tomador and to Team Echos for the memories we shared together. I am grateful to all of you. I am not a perfect friend, I have so many issues or imperfections or insecurities to myself, and I am sorry for that. I am forgiving you for the bad words I received, I understand why you all angry to me. I cannot please you to accept me or to care for, I only want you to understand everything and say sorry for your wrong doings. I am open for that possibilities. But as you know, I am soft person, I really don’t want to have an enemy, that is why even if it hurts, I accept it. I am not begging you to say sorry, because I forgive you even though you cannot do that. Your birthday last January was so fun, you have Team tomador and your Adventure fam for you to celebrate even though it is January 31 and your birthday is on 29. You have that day a Defense in Research, so it is a dual celebration because you defend it perfectly. I am proud of you when you give a flowers to your Mama and to your Grandmother, well it is your first time, and thank you for doing that. You and your mother always fought to each other because of your wrong doings, but I am because I know for the fact that you love her, unconditionally. The long wait is over, but it also ruined by the Corona Virus, you waited for 2 years in Senior High School to walk in a Red Carpet in a Graduation Ceremony, wearing a White Toga and with your Mama beside you, but it is only in an imagination. Because the school year ends early that year. I am so sad but I know it is for the safety of everyone. But you have online graduation were you graduated with Honors, STI pride Award and being Journalist of the Year. You failed. You failed in everything, in passing the UPCAT, PLM, BSU and even the scholarship in NU, but you are not a failure. I am not a failure and I never consider myself as a failure one, but also I am proud of you for trying and doing your best. I know it has a reasons why you did not pass those admissions test you have done. College life is coming, always do your best, and make your parents proud. I hope 5 years from now you have been graduated being a Magna *** laude and 5 years again you will achieve the things you are hoping you have. Keep Fighting Engineer. Justine Mark Saddi.