A letter from July 11th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, I honestly hope you just make it to graduation. I hope you're happy with yourself and,have finally learned to love you. I also hope you've gotten more confident and stand up for yourself more. As I'm writing this too you, I'm barely hanging on. The only thing keeping us going at this point is our dad and siblings. Mom is making it so hard to keep going. She's putting all her mental issues on us. But i honestly would rather it be us than the girls. Right now I don't feel strong i feel like a burden. I can barely go a day without getting depressed about something. Everything hurts my body and mind. If we've made it this far good job we did it. I love you. I don't know if you'll have a boyfriend at this point, if you don't that's ok it just means it's Trevor Wagner or any other man that would treat you right. Thank you for keeping on when I felt like i couldn't. I would cry right now but i honestly feel numb. Please if you haven't already find a therapist and try it out. Be open minded about it. Also keep accepting and loving everyone. Even if they hurt you just love from a difference. Once again thanks for coming this far when I didn't know if I could. From, your 2020 self