A letter from July 6th, 2020

Dear FutureMe,I don't know where to start.2020.Lot of things have changed in my life. I got my period and period cramps,which hurt a lot,I joined middle school where I had a crush on a boy about 12 months(too long I guess),I met a unique girl who's now my best friend,she's 3 years older than i am,but that doesn't even matter cause I love her and she's different.She helped me get through a lot of stuff,she was always the one that always understood what I was going through and I love her she's my sec fam.Also,I went to my first middle-school party in an actual club where I had an amazing time.30-11-19.one day after my b-day🤩.Today,I'm very confused with my ****** life.I think I'm bi but I'm not sure If these emotions are real.I told to my closest friends and they were all happy for me not including maria,who I think I have a crush on her.She couldn't accept who I really was, and I felt really disappointed.She was like my family but u never know who's real and who's not so we are done.I actually ruined our friendship.Thats me right now idk what's happening in the future but I've learned lots of things so far.Like fake friends which I had all the time so I got rid of them,so that's me right now idk how I will be in the next 5 years I hope not so insecure as now .Love,myself