23/03/10 mehh

Dear FutureMe, i dont really have much to talk about right now; but this has like become a kinda diary for me and three days in a row writing to myself has beaten any progress i have ever made with a dairy i suck at routine i really do; i have no idea how i have manage to keep my self motivated enough to actually do my school work; being home schooled sucks sometimes but at least i have a 12 hour week instead of a 25 hour one. also this way when everyone is at work i can go to the library to see if they actually have anything helpful on ghosts instead of loads of crap on the internet about films and shit i think i may have given up on the internet; i mean the only sites i go on now are stardoll, my emails, youtube occasionally to keep upto date with alex day and eddplant, and this site to write to you i have a sad little life; gosh i was excited about going to the library fer gosh sake i suck royally oh yea and shit i think my nose piercing has gotten infected again; i hope this one dont heal over like the last one; i have punched 10 holes in my body and only 3 have survived, 2 ear piercings and my most recent nose one i suck wow my emails have really gone down hill since sunday when i was happy i hate mood swings; and i aint even on my period i hope the depression isnt coming back bcuz tht just sucked royally oh yea THE GAME :DD sorry i think im gonna add that to every email if i remember; although the point is to not remember but oh well writing these emails now make me think about what i put in the other ones and saying THEGAME is becoming a regular thing since i keep losing :DD gosh this is long and rambling again; as i always do i wonder if yu get bored and never finsih reading my emails bcuz yu think im just a creepy emo 15 year old bitch that has nothing better to do with her time and writing long letters helps her avoid school work :DD well i guess if yu think that then yur right; meh bored now gonna go read a vampire romance novel just to be completely cliche :DD im joking; im reading a book about a succubus dirty dirty sex addict :DD jokes love ya 'xo the end nah im joking just to see if yu actually bother to go all the way to the end of the email bcuz i know yu get impatient and have a short attention span and get pissed off with yurself alot so why should this be any different i mean im yu so get pissed off with me :DD love ya bye fer real'xo