Time Travelled — 5 months

A letter from October 19th, 2018

Oct 19, 2018 Mar 25, 2019

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, WELL YOUR FUCKING CHROMEBOOK JUST DIED WHILE WRITING IT SO NOW YOU'RE VERY FUCKING ANGRY!!!! ALSO MR CORTEZ TOOK YOUR IPOD TOUCH UGH. Anyways.....this Monday you got a wax pen from Bella, which is good because, whenever you're sad and lonely you get high. It's very convenient because before you had it you were at the darkest time in your life. You would eat in the library at lunch (well not eat but sit because ugh skinny legend), you shut out all your friends, and you cut yourself. As of October 19, 2018 you haven't cut yourself in a week. You miss the feeling and the blood but not the state you were in. You currently sit with Maddy, Madison, Brynn, Jakob, and Nick. We got into a fight earlier this week. Maddy said she wanted to drop you and Madison hates that you sit at her table and how you try to make everyone "Feel bad for you". It hit so fucking hard. Guess what though? You just got high and instantly became happy. You never questioned her though, you only confronted Maddy because she, never says anything hurtful like that. You're becoming sad typing this, because you don't have your pen to cheer you up. Madison said she wanted to start over but that won't happen You miss Gus more than ever. 336 days its been since then. You still vividly remember seeing the moment on twitter where he was sent to the hospital and then minutes later seeing he had passed. Definitely one of the hardest fucking days in your life. "Lil Peep" release a song called "Cry Alone" yesterday and you like it. You heard a sample of it on sound cloud before the initial release but you're so glad he did. I'm just sad how much more popular he's gotten since his death, and Tracy minaj (lil Tracy) has noticed too. He kept tweeting out today how Bexey and Fat Nick are doing it for clout. They didn't care that much. I want to trust Tracy but I hope he can calm down and explain in a civil way what happened because I do believe they cared but I also believe some of it was done for clout. Smokesac a producer who commonly worked with Peep (Benz Truck producer) tweeted out this in response to Tracy's rage "I have love for Tracy I always will, I wish it wasn’t like this. we just talked about meeting up just last week and working on something special. But he has all right to his opinion if he don’t like me so be it." Right now you got distracted and want to order the lil peep dog tags for cowys pt. 2. I don't know what to expect for you in the future April, please become skinnier. Talk to more guys, especially some juniors (Class of 2020) they are so ugh perfect. Get high, try more drugs, sneak out. BITCH LIVE YOUR LIFE BECAUSE HIGH SCHOOL IS NEVER GONNA HAPPEN AGAIN OKAY? I'm hungry and I have KFC at home thank God. I am going on the AVID UCLA TRIP TOMORROW AND I'M HYPE BUT I CAN'T TAKE MY PEN. I REALLY WANT THE DOG TAGS BUT I NEED TO COLLECT $35 FROM MOM UGH.

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