A letter from May 20th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Are you okay, have you got help yet, are you happy, are you alive, do you have friends. my advice to you which i should probably take right now is: as perfect or fun as people on the internet seem, don't feel bad if you're struggling or not jumping around with ur friends at 2am. its stupid i know but its true. do you still have double A's. does any boy actually think your pretty. at a point in time you can't listen to people tell you that you are pretty because i would call somebody ugly, pretty. so remember. IF YOURE GUNNA CALL ME A BITCH REMEMBER TO PUT BAD INFRONT OF IT. dont live up to your sisters lives, they're not urs. i hope you have never put something about your sadness on your story. if you have then i disown you. did you make anymore friends. is there another side to this because i cant breathe and im so tired. your childhood is over too early, it shouldn't be filled with tears but i hope you can get it back. cry all you want and dont let a single person tell you that you are too sensitive. you are the funniest person i know. hows tess, is she okay, she loves you so much but she needs people to love her, and i need you to love her like she loves you. i think she will eventually open up, just give her time. also wear whatever the fuck you want, at least you aren't a basic ass bitch mmkay. trauma isnt what is a part of you i that makes a shred of sense. have you gone to a concert or a good party. don't get caught up over him, if you don't know who im talking about then good but if you do he just aint worth it...... you can't die yet because your life hasn't even started OKAY i love you so much xoxoxoxoxox ava