A letter from January 22nd, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Hi. This is Maddy from 6 months ago. Based on my previous experiences I change very often so I have no doubt that you are a very different person. But right now I’m listening to mxmtoon and cavetown. It’s almost school again. Honestly I’m kinda excited, just something to occupy myself, very excited and nervous for musical. Earlier this morning I was lying in the carport with Hannah and the other *********, and I already miss it. Are you still dating Hannah? I hope they are doing well. This letter is very jumbled #cell#17 Anyways, I hope you’re doing ok. I love you. Don’t listen to the anxiety brain. Please. You tend to do that too much and you can spiral. Tell your intrusive thoughts to **** off and be emo elsewhere. I’m proud of you. Mum and dad can be ***** without realising, but IM proud of you. Go drink some water and study. Unless you’re on holidays. Then go drink some water. See some friends, cook pancakes, make your bed. Be organised. I don’t have much to say, but oh I have so much to say. I’m anxious about upsetting my future self. That’s metal. But at the moment Im overthinking a lot. I hope that’s gotten better. I hope mum is taking you seriously. I hope you’re taking yourself seriously. That’s the most important thing. Anyways I’ll hear from you in six months! Also true kinda love is playing and the section ; Hey, you, show me that solvable problem, we can get through this I’ll do the hardest part with youuu” just came on and I think that’s relevant. OH **** ITS DRIFT AWAY NOW AHHHH NO THIS ***** WITH MY MOOD BYE BEFORE I CRY. I LOVE YOU 💕