A letter from March 27th, 2017

Dear Annan, Hi. It's me, Annan! Remember once you typed a message to your future self? Here it is. How are you? I hope you are doing fine by now. I'm already sick dealing with life. I know, everything is my and only my fault. If there's someone to blame that will be me. So yeah, get mad at me. I'm the one who's responsible for messing your life up. You are the only one who will ever understand my problems. Because you already lived through them. I ... I don't know what to do anymore. Sometimes I feel so scared that I don't want to live anymore. I was thinking to commit suicide even a while ago. And that is not the first time. But I couldn't do it for I lacked the courage. I wish this site could send messages to our past versions. But we both know that is not possible. But if I could, I would ask him to be strong, patience, wise and never to lose hopes and dreams. But most of all I would like to tell him that I love him so much. He needs it. Everybody leaves us. Father, Grandpas', labonno... maybe one day mom and sissy will too.... Do you love me? After all I have done? Are are you ok now? Or is it still hurts you? I just hope and pray you finally found peace. Sincerely, Your past self.