A letter from April 30th, 2016

Dear My Love, I wrote two letters a year ago on futureme.org and I deleted them both. They were scheduled to be delivered the day before and the day of our wedding. I deleted them because my view of the wedding has changed. I have enjoyed every part of the planning that we have been doing and I feel like it has brought us closer together and I no longer hate the idea of the wedding. The letters before were telling you that I love you and that I was sorry for my attitude about the wedding. I am still not going to be happy about parts of the wedding....mostly the ones that make me the center of attention or half the center of attention since you're the other half during most things. But I can see it being fun too. As long as certain people at our wedding, you know who Im thinking of, don't annoy the shit out of me. All I can say is that I am glad to be marrying you and not anyone else we know. I couldn't deal with any of our friends, they would drive me nuts. The last month or so has made me so certain of our future and my love for you that I think I have become more comfortable with myself and I am a happier person than before, which is crazy because I have been happy since the first time you kissed me. I love you and everything about you and I am so happy to be spending the rest of my life with you. Don't get mad if I complain about pictures and things tomorrow at the wedding <3