Are you happy?

Dear FutureMe, I find myself concerned for your happiness. I want to believe that there is no better place you could be in right now, but I still wonder - are you happy? Will I be happy? I know that lately I have been disappointed about all the hopes and dreams I built that came crumbling down right on top of me. There was a part inside that always hoped for the best outcome, a part that always thought things would turn out as planned. Who knows, maybe things DO happen for a reason and maybe there are better things ahead - maybe "ahead" is "today" for you. Today, I want to apologize. I want to say that I am sorry I didn't work harder before, that I wasn't good enough for others to think so. I regret not taking more chances and not doing everything I was supposed to; I'm sorry I wasn't the best. I write this letter so you can forgive me, so you know that I am truly sorry and that I hope that our past-self hasn't affected you, my future-self, in so many ways. Also, there is something I want to ask you. Find a way to be happy. Look for the best part of everything and always focus on that. This I ask in the hope that somehow you can know that your past did the best it could, and that I certainly lived the consequences. So now is your time to enjoy and get a chance to live and pave the way for all the future selves to come. Here's to another chance for me to get it right. Love, Your old me