Cheat

Dear FutureMe, Fuck man, I don't know what to do. I'm almost positive Helen wants to sleep with, or at least fool around with me, and I'm not sure how I feel about that. I love Julie. I want to spend the rest of my life with her. I don't want to hurt her. In fact, that's the last thing I would want to do. I really mean that. I really would never want to hurt her. But free pussy is sooooo appealing. Monogomy is stupid. It doesn't make any sense. If we were supposed to be monogamous people, we wouldn't have these feelings. Most Birds are monogamous. They don't cheat since it's not in their nature to cheat. For humans, it is not in our nature to be monogamous. So why do we do it? Society tells us to. It's a mechanism to prevent the few privledged beautiful men from keeping all of the women to themselves. Maybe. Monogamy has it's advantages. I have a deep meaningful relationship with my wife, one that I could never have with another person. If there is such a thing as a soul mate, J is mine. But the closeness we have has NOTHING to do with sex. I love our sex life, it's AWESOME!!!!! She's fun and exciting and active, we laugh in bed together. But there's something about free pussy....... Helen would be a crazy lay. At the very least, she'd be different. I'm not looking for a long term mistress, and she's not looking to be my long term mistress, it's just something fun till we both get out of this shitty town, and go back to our homes, once this fuct job is done. Do I chance J finding out? Will I ever be happy if I spurn Helen? Will I always wonder? Or will it kill me with guilt if I do? This frickin sucks...... Future me, I'm hoping you're reading this and saying "thank God I chose to __________. If you're doing the opposite, try and take some solace in the fact that you put a lot of thought into it. Peace