Life in General

Dear FutureMe, I just thought that I would let you know that right now, at this very minute, you are trying to stay awake, listening to classical music on mspr online. You have tried to study for the last two hours or more, and you have succeeded in reading chapter 11 in your ewc book. YOu have a test the next daym and you need to pray that you pass it. When you recieve this email, you hope to have a few things happen to you. Here they are: you hope to have found someone to love you. You have already spoken to someone, and gone completely against your normal self and given him your home number. He has never called, and you haven't talked to him in probably nearly a month. You think he may be, well, dead. He was in Michigan. Oh well. You also want to have hopefully graduated college by now, and started teaching. You had, a week or so ago, come to the conclusion, reached an epiphany, that you aren't meant for love, or its not meant for you, and you have decided that everything, every dream, connected to that, is pointless. You have decided to focus all of your strenght and faith and happiness on one thing: graduating and teaching. Kids, writing, love and romance: no longer a focus. But still. If it happens, it happens. Its just not going to be something that you will be searching for or looking for, but you won't object to it finding you. If it so chooses. So this is a note from yourself, written on November 8, at 202am. 2006. Things going on in life right now: shana and josh are trying to have another baby. Brad is 4. Have not seen kira and breonna in four months. The dreams about them are starting to become more vivid, though. You mom is still kicking and hopefully will be when you get this. All the most important ones are doing okay. Carl has recently gotten a job, he starts working friday or something... hopefully he will keep it. Jenn is still single. Anyway, i am going to go now, need some sleep for the test tomorrow. Need to think positively. Gotta teach for science 490 too. rode back here with dr boram last time. talked to him alot. he is a cool guy... remember him? Got into tep a few weeks ago... little over a month actually. life is good, as good as it can be. haven;t gotten to bed early in a long time. early being before midnight. anyways. good luck, on everything. I hope that this reaches you in good spirits and optimism. I hope you feel better about yourself too. Always, as you know... -Self