us today

Dear FutureFace, Yesterday when you came over after work to talk with me about the status of our relationship I was prepared to end it, or at least as prepared as I was capable of being. I did not want to go back to being bathroom shoved because Austin was insecure and didn't want me to stay the night any more. I thought it was unfair to me because of how strongly I felt toward you that I should allow that to happen to me. But you're right, relationships, especially ones with little ones involved are hard and complicated and there are often no easy answers. Then later last night after you got home you saw the letter I wrote to him almost 36 hours earlier. Despite placing it on his bed in his room, which I thought to be an unmissable location, he didn't see it. But now after both reading it, he doesn't mind if I stay over on the weekends, but still doesn't want to talk about it. Anyway, it seems things are peaceable and settled enough for all parties, for now. I hope it all works out. If, by the time you receive this letter we are no longer together then I hope you'll think about me today and remember that at this point in my life I loved you more than anything. I love(d) you, Megaslut ps, it's my birthday and I'm 25.