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Dear FutureMe, You're 22 years old right now. You've lived your life confused, hurt, depressed, down on yourself and negative. I hope by now people no longer consider you "dark". I hope you've found happiness that you do deserve. I hope you've found somebody to love you for who you are, and accepts who you are. He better be a good man, you deserve that. You love your momma with all of your heart, you'd jump in front of a train for her. You love your two sisters and nieces as well. Grandma's been passed for almost a year, a year on December 27. I know how badly that affected you, and I hope you've made some peace by now. I hope you attended college, maybe just even some classes. I hope you got out of your retail job and is living your dream job of caring and helping for the elderly. You had back surgery on August 14 of this year, that was an amazing thing to accomplish and overcome. I hope you no longer take things for granted, I hope you're living in the moment instead of putting it off like you put everything off. I hope you're finally off of your Zoloft and find it easy to be happy without it, and bearable. I hope your life is looking up. I hope you're considering having children, deep down you really do want that. I hope you're finally out of debt, and I hope your best friend of 10 years is still in your life. She's the best friend you'll ever have, period. She's stuck around with you through thick and thin, I hope y'all didn't have some silly fight to end that. I hope you've quit smoking by now, and are taking care of yourself. I hope you're still capturing moments with your camera, every single moment. I hope you still wear that cross necklace that Grandma gave to you. I hope you've gotten over your anger and bitterness toward your real father, that really wasn't worth all of the energy you put into it. I hope you're active in the fight against breast cancer, in honor of your grandma. I hope you're active in speaking out against physical and sexual abuse, too. I hope that you have grown up in a sense that if your real father wanted to apologize, that you very politely accepted it and moved on. I hope you're no longer out to want to ruin his life. Again, it's not worth it. I hope you've visited New York City by now, you've always wanted to. That's been a big dream of yours'. I hope you visit Mississippi more often by now. I hope you rescue animals, something you've always wanted to do from the time you were a child, and maybe you've actually opened up that place where you intended to take care of them until you found them excellent homes. I hope by now you realize how valuable you are, that your words do matter, that you do have talents and you are beautful. Hopefully, you love yourself by now. Hopefully you realize how talented you are at writing, and I really do hope you're still writing. I hope you still stand firm with your beliefs in God and pray every night, still. I hope you and your family have shut down the nursing home that was responsible for the deaths of your grandmother and your great grandmother. I hope you've become nicer, and find it a little easier to trust. It's okay to let people in, I promise. Not everyone is a bad apple. Maybe you've finally gotten your dream of traveling a little bit, sight seeing and soaking in all of the Earth's natural beauty. I hope by now that you're no longer broken, that you've finally glued yourself together. I love you, remember that.