A letter from October 20th, 2014

Hello my dearest, I hope you haven't become bitter after the crazy event I know are going to befall you. Release your anger. Release your sadness. Buy a gym membership and smash it out. Please, I beg you not to binge, and I beg you not to starve yourself. It's not a pick or choose, you can be healthy. At the moment you love yourself, you accept who you are but you're not really able to show it yet, you just think it. I hope you haven't gotten addicted to anything again. You don't need a bottle, or a cigarette, and certainly not the razors you gave up so long ago. You don't need kisses or a lover. You're beautiful and amazing and you're more than enough. Embrace yourself. Don't let people be mean to you, call their bullshit and remember that you've been alone before and it's really not so bad. Study your books, make some art, listen to some music and you'll be okay. Find a dream, set some goals, make some plans and make it your reality. You can do this. You CAN do this. All my love to you, beautiful one.