A letter from your 15 year old self

Dear FutureMe, Hey, it's been a while. I mean it's been like 1/4 of this section of your life. I hope to god that you have changed, because there are some pretty major changes that need to be made right now. If not get on that, you need to be employable. Listen to what Mike tells you, I know that might sound crazy, and do what he says, because I know I'm having trouble with that. I hope you're still in German. If not that's ok, I'm sure there are reasons not to be, but I would really like it if you were. How are you at German by the way? I mean a year of the language is a lot, you probably speak wayyyyy better German than me right now. Or worse if you dropped out or something, I don't know. I'm on the Dative case right now, you probably remember that, it's kind of nice looking back right? I don't know if you've started the genative case yet, but you're probably wishing you are me if you are. I hope theatre is going well. I don't know how AMDA auditions went, or if you even went through with them, but if you did I hope you did well. Right now the show hasn't actually happened for Haunting, tomorrow is the last day we have to finish the set, and I'm preparing for auditions for Funny Girl. It's weird knowing that you are reading this knowing exactly what parts I'm going to get, and how things will go, but think about that fact for a moment. You know....I don't. Anyway I hope theatre is still going well, I hope that's still what you want to do (If it's not you better get your but into gear) And I hope Mike treats you at least a little better than he does now. Still in AP? Remember that my plan was to origionally take AP Gov and Lit, and I have a feeling that that plan has gone astray. Just reminding you that they exist. Hell I could have dropped out of AP this year by the time you read this, I don't know. Just look back, remember my ignorance, and remember that I didn't see anything that has already happened for you coming. Also friends. I know you have probably lost a lot of friends because they were seniors. Right now I kind of feel like I am drifting apart from my friends. As is, I hope you're still stable. I mean obviously the friends that I am closest to you don't have right now, so I hope it's going well. And if you don't have anyone really close at school just remember, somewhere during this play or the next one you will gain more. I mean heck, there is this Freshman going for Eddie in the musical right now that I hate, I'm interested to see your opinion on him. What about relationships? You still with Celestial? Anything go wrong. You are either going to look at this either as a reminder of how long you have been with her, or a reminder of how much you used to or still do love her. You may have broken up with her, I understand if you have, I mean shit happens, I don't know all of what you guys have been through this past year. I just hope that you look on this if worst came to worst, and not look at this as some kind of "God I was dumb" Call me young, call me nieve, I understand the fact that I am, but please don't think I didn't love her. Because I do, I love her more than anything, and if something changes that just remember how I feel now, no matter how you feel. Well that's all the time I have. Do me a favour though. Hug mum for me, tell her you love her. Thank Mike for me, thank him for everything he has done just up to my point not yours. Text the Sexy Jew and Anika right now and tell them that I think they are awesome and that I love them both. And look at yourself, and I hope to god that you are a better person than I am. Yours truly, Your 15 year old self.