A letter from September 16th, 2014

Dear FutureMe, Hey I type this the way i seem to type all my entries, in the dark, on my bed and in my room, which happens to be in Rutgers tonight. Morrow Suites if you've forgotten. I don't know when I'm going to send this so i just want to remind you how I'm feeling at this point in time and some things that are going on in my life. So i guess there's really been nothing big though i really want something big to happen. Its been pretty mundane and i guess i haven't been as receptive to new things as i thought because today was the first time i went to Chinese Student Org, CSO and it was pretty superficial, frats, parties, money vs doing good. It's not really what I want. I guess i just want a group of individuals who prize diversity, others, and development. Those who aren't afraid to face the hardships in life. I hope you've found a group like that. Mark conference seems to be a good place to start. How do I do something with all the events going on in the world today? Ebola crisis in West Africa Palestine - Israel conflict Ukraine - Russia conflict Syrian Civil War The Islamic State And countless others ranging from corruption to poverty in all forms and countries. I hope you're making a difference in the world. But of course the world around you is just your life and I'm sure that you're making a difference there just by showing upBut i hope that you show up with a group. Anyway back to any current problems i have. So i've mentioned the group desire, and there is a desire for a girl. Recently I've had the urge to sing 10/10 I'm yours by The Script to a girl. Or any love song where I pour out feelings i have. But the only one I can really think of around here is Megha but it has been that way for awhile. Not really sure if i like her, but she's the only one whom I've agreed with since getting here. I feel like i can just click with her but that just might be the way she is, easy to talk to. But yea we talk about girls alot in the dorm. Dan said i was picky and, though i hate to admit it, i guess i am. As far as relationships go. I guess i just want someone to share my ideas and challenge them to be better. I need a growth inducer. and i guess someone to let my feelings known to. it would be pretty fake to just confess to a stranger or someone i didn't really like, though it might the the job done in the end. Any other problems... just in general forgetting where i came from and what values I hold. Human Worth, Development, Diversity, Tough i appreciate human worth, human interaction isn't as great. I just need to get deeper i guess. I guess the other complaint or uneasy feeling i get in my stomoch is Kevin Chang I don't know why but whenever he comes in, like now, i feel this drop in my stomach like i don't want him to be here. Why? Not sure. Anyway, i don't really know what other concerns or problems I have future me but i hope that you don't have them and are dealing with a slew of different ones. Bye!!! Kevin