A letter from April 23rd, 2014

Dear Future Me, I really hope you haven't fucked anything up yet. You better be doing good. You better be on the right track. You better have Mary Reeves right by your side. Me, I really hope everything gets better. Right now it has been about a month since Uncle Donnie's death. Mom freaks out every morning. Amera schedules aren't working. School is stressful. Friends are stressful. Writing a letter to my future self is kind of weird for me. Since, I don't know what you, I, have done yet it is hard to come up with words to say to you, to me, I mean: us. Since I can't talk to you about what you, I, we have done, I'll just tell you what is currently happening right now. So, as of right now, I am struggling with self-esteem issues. I really don't feel good enough for anyone, and I am highly unsatisfied with myself. Mom has been yelling a lot, and I know it's because she's stressed, but it stresses me out that she can't find a better way to handle things. She did apologize, however. I just got into Magic the Gathering! I hope I get good at it. Um..I am constantly trying to get to the front page of Imgur and so far it hasn't worked. But, I will stay persistent. I still want to be a teacher. I am in Ms. K, the Phys Science teacher's classroom. Right now I, you are 16 years old. I really want to be a positive person, but I'll be damned if it isn't hard. I try to keep my chin up and look toward the future, but it seems that no matter what I do I end up with the urge to cry. I hope I, you get over this. Mary Reeves and Madison are really good in my life right now. I couldn't be happier with this girl. Reeves is just a gem in a sea of copper. She really is magnificent. If you did something to fuck it up, I will personally kick your ass. Interesting facts about you and things that happened to you this year: 1. Your one year with Reeves is this year in June. 2. Your grades are all A's. 3. As of this date, your total Imgur points is 336. (not tooooo good) 4. You got your permit this year! 5. You got your braces off! 6. You are in the 10th grade! 7. You went to Harry Potter world this year! 8. You got a Yahtzee on one roll! Your first! 9. You're getting promoted to an Editor soon! 10. You are slowly gaining weight! Well, I don't really have much to say, me. Have a nice life. I hope I love you, me, one day. Nos vemos.