A letter from January 1st, 2014

Dear FutureMe, I am writing this in extreme disappointment because I didn't want to start the new year with the same goals and admit to another year of failures. You yo yo'd for 2013 and lost the same 20 lbs all year long. Even after diets and shots, today I am 260.0 I hope to find the future me at least healthier and thinner. I have no life. I just sit in the bedroom day after day. With no car, bus service, and depression and student loans keeping me for working more than I do, today I feel so trapped. I have an idea for school but put off researching it. I want this new year to find me to at least have been working towards the goal of having a degree. I promised myself that in my 50th year I would go to Germany and then with the student loans taking anything over $240 a week I have just given up this goal. I hope that I won the lottery of something happened to allow me to live my dream of going to Berlin. These are my goals from Day zero http://dayzeroproject.com/ 1Visit Berlin GERMANY 2get passport 3get a degree 4peace corp 5get healthy 6run a marathon 7get control of my eating habits 8love 9Have a picnic in Paris 10be happy 11get a cell phone 12take pictures of my life 13meditate 14try a new recipe every week 15cook from scratch more 16eat out less 17chose quality when eating out 18find something positive to treat myself to 19save money 20get a new laptop 21win the lottery 22go to the doctor about my hands 23see Rammstein in concert again 24get a car 25love myself more