Please don't delete- Just a little blast from the past

Ben, I'm writing you this email from Monday, November 8th, 2011 at 5:19 PM. I really hope you still have this email address three years from now, but even so, I've arranged to send this to a few of my personal emails, and even saved a copy to my hard drive, in case this website, futureme.org, goes down within the next three years. So I've got it covered. I hope :/ Last night you stayed up all night writing a literature review for Professor Duggan [who you hate with a fiery passion]. I think when all was said and done, you didn't get to bed until nearly 5 AM, and had class early the next morning (while I, in my infinite wisdom, scheduled late afternoon classes, and got to sleep in until around 1 PM). I stayed up with you while you typed, Playing Tales of the Abyss on your Playstation 2. Matt was with us, ridiculing the voice acting, and just...being Matt. You know how he is (or at least, you should remember). Around 1 or 2 AM it started hailing- at first I thought it was snow. You suggested we go outside and play in the snow, but when you realized it was hail, you were disappointed. It would've been the first snow of the season, but it was just hail. Stupid hail, that turned to stupid rain, and now it's all cold and wet and dark. This morning I woke up to my phone ringing...or well, vibrating- I hardly ever leave the sound on. It was you, asking a very groggy and sleepy me to come to lunch in the Dining Commons. I met you there, and all the food was gross, so we attemped to eat French fries. Sadly, they were disgusting garlic fries, so no good. As I walked you to your class, you were talking about your workload and the grades you thought you'd get (1 B, 2 A's and an AB, if I remember correctly), and I boasted that I had the best schedule and would probably get 3 A’s and an AB, and had a nearly nonexistant workload. You replied that your semester wasn’t too bad, because there were two things that it bearable: the fact that you would earn your Economics degree at the end of the semester, (and therefore never have to see Marie Duggan again), and the fact that you lived with me, and I was your girlfriend. Right now I'm desk attending in Monadnock. I can’t stop listening to Year Of The Cat by Al Stewart- if you don’t know it you should look it up and give it a listen! I'll be here until 11 PM, and I texted you a little while ago, and you told me you'd bring me food because I forgot to eat, and have no time to grab anything since everyplace closes before 11 PM on a Monday. Quite thoughtful of you, thanks. In all honesty, I didn't email you IN THE FUTURE just to give you a rundown of an average day two years ago, although I'm sure you'll find that interesting. Hell, you might even remember the day in question enough to correct my summary- you've got an amazing recall. But no. I'm emailing you to tell you that, no matter what happens three years from now, I love you in this moment with all my heart. You have been so excellent and wonderful to me, so loving and caring and protective, it has literally changed my life and the way I think about the world around me. And that’s kind of a huge deal, don’t you think? So I want you to know now, and three years into the future, that someone loved you so hard that they wanted to spend the rest of their life with you, that they wanted you to know it no matter what happens after. And back on track! I’m not sure where either of us will be in three years. If I were more naïve and optimistic, I would write this letter with a certainty that we were still together, still dating, still in love, and friends, just like in the beginning. That’s certainly what I want the future to look like. But you know me, always overcautious, and a bit pessimistic, to boot. Plus, I’m a hopeless romantic, and I’ve freaking seen P.S. I Love You! So I’m going to prepare for all probable courses of action/outcomes. Just in case. This is like a choose your own adventure letter. If we are still together, skip to option #4, at the bottom! 1) If we’ve suffered some terrible breakup or fight RECENTLY: Well… it’s probably my fault. I can be really stubborn, and selfish sometimes. I hope I didn’t do something really awful, like murder your family, or divorce you, or swindle you out of all your money, or cheat on you, but hey. I’m not always the best of people, so it might’ve happened. (I’m kidding here, but if any of these things did actually happen, God, I am so so so incredibly sorry! Wow, I’m a real asshole!) Anyway, I’m hoping we get back together, and that you’ll forgive me for being…well, me. Maybe this will convince you that my feelings for you were (and probably still are) genuine. 2)If we’ve been broken up for awhile, with no hope of getting back together: These things happen. I just hoped they wouldn’t happen to us, but you never can tell how things will turn out. Just know that, no matter what I say later, you made me the happiest I can remember being. I really hope our split was amicable, and that you’ve found someone- please never never pine over me. You are an amazing guy, a terrific boyfriend, and you’ll make someone a wonderful husband someday. I loved you once, and I’m sure someone else can love you just as much, if you let them. 3) If I’m dead: This is probably silly, but I’ve always had a morbid streak. And like I said, I’ve seen my share of romantic movies, so…it could happen. I just hope it doesn’t. In any event, if I’m dead, please know that I loved you so much. Now move on, and find someone new, who can keep loving you like I couldn’t. And if we had children, make sure you tell them I loved them every bit as much as I love you now. Because I know somehow that I would (especially since there’s no way they would’ve hit their annoying, difficult teenager phases!). Sorry for being dead- it’s gotta be tough for you all. [Wow, what a fantastic imagination I’ve got]. 4) If we’re still together : If we’re still together, then I’ll have the future I’ve been dreaming of since we essentially met. (Yes, I know how creepy that sounds). For some reason, I just always saw myself settling down, moving in, marrying and having kids with you- I’m not sure why. I sort of secretly hope we’re married by now, or at least engaged. Anyway, if this is the case, I’m really happy, because it will mean you’ve made my dreams come true :)