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Dear FutureMe, You ready future me to read the longest email of your ENTIRE life?? I hope so, cause this is probably gonna take like, fifty billion year to read. Or at least I hope it does, cause if I don't make it super long I'd have to come back and change this and you would never be reading this. Wouldn't that be weird? Me deleting this thing that I almost sent to you, but you will never see it? It'd be something else? Wow. I'm thinking this may take 50 billion years to read just fom this nice LITTLE intro(: Yes! I have been using backwards smilies. I thought it was soo weird, but it really isn't. I actaully very much like them, and for some reason my keyboard is like, not typing well... That's annoying. But I also like the smily :} it's all silly and like, evil looking!!!! Anyways, I'm gonna end the novel lonf intro now. I'm gonna start putting spaces between paragraphs. It is so much nicer than just having a whole long thing of words blurred together. I think I just misspelled blurred. O well! Anyways, first week of high school. I'm liking it, but I really need to make some new friends that are awesome :) That is a goal, to make amazing friends I'll love all four years of highschool!!! Hopefully, by the time you're reading this, you are thinking of a few names of those certain people. Hopefully you are not still a loser with no good friends.... And hopefully you have some more good guy friends, and maybe had a hot boyfriend or two?? That'd be great. High school is so much harder and so much more stressful! It's only been one week nd I've gone from first day : YAY!!! HIGH SCHOOL ROCKS! To last day : Kill me now, this sucks majorly:( I'm wishing that when you think back on these four years, you're happy. Not depressed. I don't want to be one of those people that hate high school and everything about it. Blehh, that would suck :( But if you do, make college AWESOME!!! You promise me that? Thanks :) I hope you are more outgoing!! That would be great. Some people are sooo lucky to be able to make friends so easily! And it sucks cause a lot of people already have their friends for life. No room for me!! :{ Well, I don't even remember what I put in my last email. I don't even know if I mentioned me being so annoyed with Sam and such, so if I didn't, well, that's basicly it. I was just getting annoyed with everything he said! I was about to like, kill him it was so annoying >.< But now I am not like that, yay!! I'm happy. I really do love him to death, but I don't know if he is that way about me. I mean, some guys are like : Heck ya! She's my besest friend ever, love her till death! Ad some are like : Pshh, we're friends. When the girl is like : We are BEST FRIENDS FOR EVERRR!!! And it's just sad cause he doesn't say what he's like. I mean, he has to be like best friends with me, he's said I'm his best girl friend before. But he never really ACTS like it. But, like he always says, that's just not him. Anyways, you met this new girl Carrie. She's gone to private school all her life till High school this year at Coronado. Maybe you'll be best friends with her, maybe you guys haven't spoken since freshman year, who knows! But I hope you are, she's super pretty and seems really cool(: Art is gonna be a blast if we sit with those two seniors guys allllll year! They are the BOMB!! So nice and easy to talk too, even thought they are so much older. Dang, they'd almost be out of college by the time you read this! Ha ha ha : i feel like a pedaphile sitting at this table. LOL That was funny! And guessing your names.... Ha ha, I'm out bragging about these senior guys when they probably don't even remember my name ;) I really hope you enjoy reading these. I hope you're happier than I am right now. I mean, I'm good, but it's so hard to describe how I feel. Like sad, but happy, but grateful, but depressed, but angry, but hyper. It's so weird. I want to love life, but that's hard to do, since it sucks. And I don't even wanna get started about love... I really hope I've had a great relationship or are in one. Cause that's really what I'm most scared of, finding a guy perfect for me. Maybe Sam and I have gotten together... i really don't see that as a bad thing. Best friends are normally amazing couples! But he sees me like a sister... And sometimes I just can't stand the thought of me liking him, and others, I just adore him... Like that one time at Kenna's house, him playing the guitar. And me feeling like I was about to cry seeing him so happy. That was a weird, weird moment......... I'm getting tirey eyed just thinking about it. But I can dream... It'll probably never become a reality though. Wow, bringing up Sam again. Dang, I'm obsessed and we aren't even going to the Sam high schools >.< I really do miss him though... Haven't seen him since before Greece!!! Ahhh, Greece. That was awesome(: Look, I really am making a super long email! This is so awesome! I like these. Maybe I'll do more of these. I don't even know how many emails I've sent, I don't even remember what I have said in these emails. I hope nothing too depressing. But this type of thing, sending emails to your future, makes me remember that life goes on, and nothing lasts forever. The bad can only get better!!! YAY! I'm actually having a positive outlook on life right now! Woot, woot!! What else do I want to talk about? Umm... You're favorite band of ALL TIME is Avenged Sevenfold. Favorite song by them right now is Dancing Dead, but you really like them all. I don't know why I went from talking first person, to saying you. I'm going to go back to saying I. They are an amazing band, and I love them!!! Well, WE love them!! Hopefully. Ha ha ha ha, I wonder if you ever talked to that kid wtih an Avenged Sevenfold shirt?? Lol. Braydon : Just talk to him already!!! Lol. I want one of those shirts!!! I need to go to Hot Topic and get one... STAT! :D Next weekend hopefully I'm gonna go to the mall wtih Sam adn some people. Maybe then I can get it. And maybe a new hoodie too! Yay for hoodies! lol. This paragraph is super duper random. Youre listening to Interne Killed The Video Star by The Limousines. Go look it up, music video if pretty awesome! CTFxC FOR LIFE!!!!! Here is a funny story from highschool : Now, you were trying to make your way AGAINST I huge crowd of kids. There were millions, against you, poor freshman, trying to get to your locker. So, this one black girl is yacking to someone behind her, and isn't paying attention to where she is walking. You're stuck in this crowd, inching your way through, and she runs into you. She snaps her head around, and is like an inch from your face! She goes : Well damn girl, what are you trying to do, kiss me or something??? That was the FUNNIEST thing ever! Braydon and you could not stop laughing!! Hmmm, I guess that's a good segway to Braydon. Dear crazy Braydon, your best friend. Gosh, I love him so much:) He's a great guy and sooooo funny to talk to. Even though he's super weird and stuff, that's okay cause you feel normal with him, like everythings okay. Please still be friends wtih him, or I will need to face palm right now and think : I am such an idiot! Too not still be friends wtih Braydon! Unless it's not your fault, like he moved or something. That would suck :( You haven't spoken to Patrick in forever. I feel like I should text him righ now, and I have no idea why. I don't know, it was kinda weird. Once you stopped liking him, it's kinda just weird now. It doesn't feel right. Like, I want to tell him, and I'm thinking all this stuff like he never actually liked me which makes it even more embarassing to tell him I don't like him anymore and him be like : Whoa, I never even liked you. Good thing you don't like me anymore! Phew, close one. And he was so nice for that little bit. O welll, that was a stupid things. IDK I jsut realllllly liked him for a couple months. That was nice, ish. I like when I like someone, it's nice. But I realllly need to like someone great next time! :) Hopefully, this is what actually happens. Not another Mason... Wonder if he ever thinks of me. Hmmmmmmmmm.... Text Pineapple to Sam right now. If you too are still good friends and all. Hopefully you are!!! I'm hoping for a lot of stuff from future me. Hey, you better be hot too!! Lol. Probably not, sorry me :( Stupid genetics!! I'm actually running out of things to say. I want to say more, but I feel like this is a good time to end this. Happy birthday! LOVE YOU MEEE!!!! Age : 14 Time : 7:08 PM Date : August 28, 2010 PS MONTEMAYOR IS A WITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Or something that rhymes with that anyways ;)