Rain, rain, rain

Dear FutureSelf, March 6, 2010 at 4:10 you are listening to the rain hit your windowsill. It's really weird how fast this life thing goes, huh? By the time I get this I'll be twenty-two, and the effects of "OMG I'M 21" have worn off. Hopefully you didn't ruin my liver in the past year. Or the past four years. By now, you're nearly graduated from college huh, like one more year...hopefully, if I was smart about it. Does the rain still make you sad? Maybe by now you're married (fat chance, but still), you could've even had kids by now (of course...hopefully you haven't). I wonder how idiotic and irrelevant I think all the current 2010 issues are (mpuccsu). Well the last two not so idiotic. Do you still talk to anyone from high school?? Knowing myself now, probably only a very select few (AEBS). I'm really afraid I'm going to mess things up for you, I'm afraid of the future, and of the change it brings, I'm afraid that by now Mom and Dad will have finally split up since lil B graduated. By now my puppy will be big...is she there reading this too?? Or did Dad make you leave her behind with him? I know for A FACT when I read this, I'll be reminded of the time when I did write this, and I'll start thinking about the time elapsed in-between. Right now, I am in the "In-between". Did you ever get that Macbook you so desperately wanted? Did you ever just allow yourself to be free, and go to Chile?? HOW IS YOUR LIST. OH god you better still have it, and still be filling out and accomplishing tasks on that thing....It'll have been like.. eight years since you started compiling it, you should feel really good. I'm assuming you might might might still write in a journal, and I KNOW you still have all the journals from high school and Jr. High, you wouldn't be able to throw that away. Hopefully by now Mom has finally started taking care of herself. God I really hope she's happy, I hope she's had her surgery by now, and I hope that she's moved past all the negative to find happiness in her life. I love mom, and I know you do too. Shit, I hope everyone is doing well, and most of all I hope you make it this far to read this. I seriously really hope I don't mess my body up too much to make it four years. It's the rain. It's "el nino" this year, so there's been more than usual. Maybe it's even raining right now...god that would be ironic huh. There's so much to write, so much to ask myself, I guess it's because I'm at a definite crossroads in my life. PLEASE don't end up like SP. PLEASE. Do you still keep in touch will Sammie, and Ana?? How's the Earth doing? Well, I wish the best of luck from this point to 2014. shit i did graduate college. hahaha. the best of luck, 17 year old you. P.S. Remember that most things work out in time. But of course, you probably already realize this.